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Lewis Freedman

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YET

 

I SAW WHAT I’D WRITTEN I’D WRITTEN BEER MUGS IN TOAST

WORDS THAT NEED NO INTRODUCTION


THE VISION OF A PERSON BEING DRAGGED ALONG IN MY

BODY TOO QUICKLY TO BUILD THAT KINGDOM OF THE

NEURAL FOLD INSIDE THE NEURAL FOLD


IT’S ALL TOO SOLEMN THIS ACTING LIKE IT’S A BURDEN TO

HAVE TO LOOK REPEATEDLY BETWEEN THE


TELESCOPE AND THE MAP WHEN YOU’RE LOOKING OUT

THERE JUST TO SEE


IT’S TOO ANGRY ACTING LIKE THESE ARE OUR ACTUAL FACES

WHEN I KNOW WE ARE ONLY THE MYTHOLOGICAL

EMBRYOS OF ANY GIVEN ACTION


SYMMETRICAL BECAUSE IT’S ALREADY CONSUMED YET


THE PROCESSES ARE ON OUR SIDE


PLEASED TO BELIEVE THE PROCESSES ARE ON OUR SIDE

SMOOTHED OUT THOUGH THE HEAD HASN’T FUSED YET


LOOK

 

LOOK IF THE IMAGE OF A YO-YO HANGING FROM A NAIL OFF

THE BARN DOOR DOES IT FOR YOU THEN LOOK LETS JUST

LOOK AT THE YO-YO


LET’S LOOK AT THE YO-YO LIKE THE TWO NIMBUS-LIKE

THINGS WE AND THE YO-YO ARE


FOR FUNCTIONALLY-SPEAKING WE AND THE YO-YO ARE BOTH

AURAS SURROUNDING AND BEARING THE FLUCTUATING

LIGHT OF SOME DIVINE PASSAGE BETWEEN WORLDS


WE ARE LIMINAL ALWAYS BUT NEVER WHAT THE LIMINAL

THING WOULD CALL FREE


AND WHILE YOU’RE LOOKING JUST FYI I’M IN THE PROCESS OF

MAKING A PLATE A PLATE TO SERVE COOKED CLOUDS ON

BUT THAT’LL BE LATER


RIGHT NOW I’M BRINGING US ALL A PLATTER OF FRUIT WITH

TINY HATS ON EACH PIECE OF FRUIT EACH WITH AN EGG

YOLK CAREFULLY INJECTED TO FILL ITS PITTED CENTER


AM I TRYING TOO HARD TO PLEASE?

 

 

TWO FACES YAWNING RECLINING ON THIER DIVANS JUST

WAITING ON ME TO WAIT ON THEM


OUR SIX EYES LIKE CAREFULLY SET YOLKS CONNECTED BY

BRAIN STEMS TO OUR INVISIBLE YET BEAUTIFUL KIDNEYS


WE COULD JUST END ON THAT REALLY WE COULD WE COULD

BUT THERE’S A MONSTROUS ABSTRACTION IN HERE

HANGING ON BY THE GLOW OF CASH MONEY TO THE IDEA

OF A THOUGHT LIKE A LAPSED YO-YO AND THAT I CAN’T

LET GO


JUDGING FROM THE PICTURE AT HAND I SEE TWO POSSIBLE

MOVEMENTS FORWARDS IF YOU AGREE WITH FREUD OR I

LIKE TO THINK OR AT LEAST I USED TO


OH FUCK WE’RE LIKE IN THE IMPASSE DEEP BREATHS

I HEAR THEM SAY


LET’S RIGHT THIS IMPASSE

 

 

LET’S WRITE THIS IMPASSE THROUGH THE IDEA OF A

STRUCTURE OR MAYBE THROUGH SOME ANATOMICAL

DESCRIPTION AS THOUGH THE MOLTEN SEALING WAX

DRIPPING FROM THIS TOTALLY NOT-BURNING KITCHEN

CEILING WAS LIKE A REAL DISTANCE BUT A MICROSCOPIC

ONE A PLACE TO VISIT YOU MIGHT SAY NOT TO STAY ALIVE

AND LIVE

 

BUT SUPPOSE YOU HAVE AN ATOMIC BOMB LIKE YOUR OWN

ATOM BOMB IN YOUR OWN DOMICILE WITH YOUR OWN

INITIALS ENGRAVED ON ITS SIDE


WHAT IF THE FEDS SAID YOU COULD HAVE TWO THE SECOND

OF WHICH WRAPPED IN A MEDICAL CAST TO BE

ILLUSTRATED AND SIGNED YOU NAMED SPINE AFTER ITS

INEXPLICABILITY

 

WAIT OK LET’S START AGAIN LET’S SUPPOSE YOU GOT

YOURSELF TWO ATOM BOMBS (MAY THE ONE DO GOOD

UPON THE OTHER)


AND THEY WERE QUIET SO TO SPEAK THEY BROUGHT A

NEWBORN’S HUSH TO THE HOME BUT TOO QUIET CALM

ENOUGH TO TURN A MOTH


YOUR NEIGHBORS MIGHT TURN THEIR NOSES UP BUT IT’S ALL

AUTHORIZED PROMISES MADE WAIT

 

ANY WAY YOU BREAK IT DOWN IT’S SHADY AND IT’S A

NIGHTMARE LIKE ANY WAY YOU BREAK IT DOWN OUR

BODIES’ ORIFICES ARE TRIANGULAR THEY MIGHT NOT

LOOK THAT WAY


THEIR MOTION IS OFTEN MISPERCEIVED BECAUSE OF THE

INTENSE NEURAL STREAKS THAT LAYER AND SURROUND

THEM LIKE LARGELY INEFFECTIVE HAIR COMBS

 

ANYWAY IT‘S A SAD DAY WHEN METAPHORICALLY SPEAKING

THE CAKE HAS WIND TO CONTEND WITH

 

 

SO ALL THE INTERPRETIVE HINTS IN THE BOOK I MEAN TO

WRITE AREN’T GOING TO COMPREHENSIVELY REPRESENT

THAT OLD STUBBY CANDLE I CARRY FROM ROOM TO ROOM

TO FAIL TO LIGHT MY WAY BUT WHOSE PHALLIC SHADOWS

ARE SEEN EVERYWHERE STUPID AND KIND OF SAD


WON’T LET ME DIVIDE HOW I’M DIRECTED TO MOVE FROM

THE UNSEEN BOSS DIRECTING ME


AND FROM NOW ON MY EXEGESIS IS GOING TO GET BITTER

AND ANGRY BECAUSE WHAT YOU CALL A MASTODON I’VE

BEEN CALLING A MASTADON FOR YEARS NOW


BUT ON THE OTHER HAND THIS IS HARD TO WRITE IT’S HARD

TO CONTINUE IN THIS VEIN WHEN NEARLY EVERYTHING

HAS BEEN WRITTEN THIS WAY ALREADY


WHO’S TO SAY WE WON’T SUFFER SADNESS AND WE’LL

RECEIVE ALL OUR SUFFERING WITH JOY?

 

I DON’T KNOW I LOOK INTO THE MARK I DREW AND I CAN

ALMOST MAKE OUT SOME CELLULA


SOME WHAT DO YOU CALL IT THAT CONTINOUS THREE-

DIMENSIONAL DEPTH YOU GET WHEN YOU REALLY LOOK

INTO THE SHADING OF THAT MARK YOU’VE MADE?


YOU KNOW THAT WHAT DO YOU CALL IT WHEN YOU LOOK

REALLY CLOSELY AND YOU SEE ONE SIDE IS DIFFERENT

WHICH REFLECTS A FURTHER DIFFERENCE SEEMINGLY ALL

THE WAY DOWN?

 

 

BUT NOT ACTUALLY ALL THE WAY DOWN OR YOU WOULDN’T

HAVE STOPPED LOOKING

 

 

IT’S LIKE CALLING A REFLECTIVE POOL OF WATER A DITZ

BECAUSE WE CAN’T DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN ITS

MOVEMENT AND THE LEAVES TWERKING IN THE BREEZE

FROM THE TREE IT’S REFLECTING


IN OTHER WORDS IT’S ON US AND OUR CULTURE THAT

CHARMING BASE OF A PICTURE WE PUN AS EYE GOING ON

NEARBY THE PINS IN OUR HEADS


A CENTRAL PICTURE OF APPEARING ITSELF FROM WHICH NO

ONE’S LOOKING OUT AND THOUGH IT LOOKS LIKE SOME

KIND OF TOY I’D HAND TO A TODDLER IT GIVES OFF SOME

SORTA MYSTICAL VIBE


IT’S THE KIND OF THE KIND OF MYSTICISM YOU COULD FLUSH

A COMMODE WITH OR JUST SIT AROUND ON THE TOILET

CRACKING JOKES WITH


THE KIND OF THE KIND OF MYSTICISM THAT HAS ITS OWN

GRAVITY AND SUCTION SO THAT WHEN YOU JOKINGLY

PUNCH IT OR PINCH IT THE LIGHTS IN YOUR FINGERS GO

OUT

 

 

IS IT HELPING US GET INVOLVED IN COMMUNITY RIGHT NOW?

 

 

IT’S A POISON ONE SO LET’S JUST DREAM ON IT

 

 

WE ARE TO SETTLE FOR THE BLUR OF A NOSE-TO-EAR

INTERACTION WE’VE NOTHING TO SAY HERE EXCEPT

ANUL OR VOGUE OR PINE GENITAL CRYPTOGRAMS EACH

THE SILHOUETTE OF WHOSE SPACE-FORM IS LOST IN THE

BALUSTRADE TO REVEAL ONLY THE LIGHT GREY STRIPE OF

ITS CENTRAL POINT


I MEAN THIS IS A DESIGNATED BITING NO BITING SURFACE

LIKE THE SURFACE OF A DUCKBILL FOR EXAMPLE OR A

TOOTH THAT BITES BUT WON’T BE BITTEN


SO YOU CAN THINK OF A VERY CREW HAIRCUT ON A GINGER-

HAIRED HEAD AND YOU CAN THINK OF AN ANEMONE SO

FRESH IN THE MORNING PLYING A SMALL LEVER TO PRY

OPEN ITS CAN OF ORANGE FANTA


AND IF THIS DOESN’T DO IT IF THE DREAM’S GOING WRONG I

GUESS YOU CAN THINK OF TWO COLONIZED NUNS OR

MONKS STUCK BY THE HEAT TO THEIR HABITS DOING

SOMETHING VERY SLOWLY AT THE HOTTEST POINT OF THE

DAY BY THE COOLING ENTRANCE TO A DESERT CAVE THE

FUTURE FORBIDS SAYING WHAT

 

 

AND AND


THIS IS WHAT YOU CAN’T THINK OF BECAUSE THE PROJECT IS

COVERING THE CAPSULES AS THOUGHTS THEMSELVES


I MEAN I GUESS IF YOU CLOSED YOUR EYES ENOUGH AND

PLUGGED YOUR EARS AND PORES YOU COULD CREATE A

KIND OF WALL ON WHICH THE FORM OF THIS

UNTHINKABLE COULD BE HUNG


BUT I DOUBT IT’S WORTH THE CATATONIC EFFORT

 

 

I MEAN MAYBE IT IS

 

AND DO YOU THINK YOU’D PREFER A REAL ENTRANCE TO A

FAKE PARK OR A FAKE ENTRANCE TO A REAL PARK?

 

 

I KNOW WHAT I’D LIKE


BUT BECAUSE ALL THE DIMINISHMENT’S IN THE DETAILS I

HAD TO HAVE EXITED THOUGHT AND THE ACTION OF

THOUGHT TO KNOW IT

 

AN ACT OF ALL-IN-ALL ESPECIALLY OVER HERE WHERE I’VE

ALREADY AGAIN MADE THE TRIP TO MY FACE

 

 

* * *

 

LEWIS FREEDMAN

 

 

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